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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

OMGWTFBBQ???

OMGWTFBBQ aka Oh My God/Gosh, Wat The Fuck BarBeQue
wat a nice phrase to describe surprise yes?

Well maybe the following picture will giv u dat expression:
or ... maybe not
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Blonds have more fun yes?? LOL

so anyway
Tengen Toppa Gurren Laggan
is a nice anime to watch, short, oni 27 eps. but damm nice ! UBER EPICNESS !!
ull knoe wat i mean if u watch ^^

Outz

blond has more fun no ??

Friday, July 11, 2008

neo armstrong cyclone jet armstrong cannon!!!

Well some of those who have been reading my nick in gtalk been asking:

what is "neo armstrong cyclone jet armstrong cannon?"

well most of u would think neo armstrong......neil armstrong? da astronaut?
well at least da cannon part is accurate, its a cannon. but i dun think it has any relation with him
well not totally unrelated....... ull see wat i mean. unless he is not a he

So WHAT IS NEIL ARMSTRONG CYCLONE JET ARMSTRONG CANNON ?? !!

okay okay like i said its a cannon and a pwerful one at tat here is a snow replica of neo armstrong cyclone jet armstrong cannon!!!
see see its a cannon !! and according to history its been used in wars etc etc

wat ? too small and too blur ? kk heres another bigger pic of
neo armstrong cyclone jet armstrong cannon!!!
Shiny !!! LOL
there u have it, that is the NEIL ARMSTRONG CYCLONE JET ARMSTRONG CANNON !!!
Dont U DARE FORGET !!! MUHWAhhaha XD

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

DIE STUPID STREAMYX !!!

I HATE THIS STUPID CONECTION:STREAMYX

well not tat i hoping it to die. if it dies ill be reall really bored.. close to a zombie on a bed.
soo lets see... wat do we have here......
blablabla leg(stupid syen & leo) blablablba laptop room..boring... blablablba suyin blabla love from anoher POV...... you guys reallly dun give me much choice huh

well i guess its oni Love from another POV......btw POV = point of view for those who duno and too shy to ask because ur scared to look stupid.

okay.. since my shows are loading (EXTREMELY SLOWLY) guess i could crap abit bout tat

Lets see love from another pov...
but from wat pov? God? doG?
I knoe ! GOLDFISH !!!


soo blluubb bluuub bloob, bllub bluoop
bllooop bllup bllllooooop BlllooooPP

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okay tat aint working
i have no idea how goldfish ticks. so lets get to the apes(human) again.

well xander ur partly correct bout tat i dun have anything else to say on tat matter
love tat is.
but then i realise i was talking all along bout pre relations instead of ongoing relations

Oooh Oooh too make this abiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit more intresting lets see which is worst, or atleast think its worst.
1. getting rejected after confession
2. breaking up(mutual) after a relationship (NOT SEX) ~well if u din enjoyed da sex u should breakup, jk jk, just get a karma sutra.
3. getting dumped
4. caught ur partner cheating on u
5. I duno, im single and im too lazy to guess.

well let da polls roll ~~~~
roll roll roll da polls gently down da ... pole?

ahem..
the poles are on ur right
if u duno which is right or left folllow da arrow below
>>>>>>>----------------------------->
if u dunno wat is an arrow, go bang ur head on the wall closest to you.

koff koff
so anyway back to the topic.
so hows love during a relationship
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well this vary like hell really @@
okay fine theres oni one Hell so it cant very tat much.
so this vary like the types on bacteria on ur feet.

u can spot those lovey dovey i love u forever kinda couples that goes extremely strong
at the start but most of the time the love dies out fast, probably get bored of each other O_O (not cursing anyone here so dun perah santan)

or those that are too shy to admit at all till a certain period of time have passed then oni come out of the closet . .. well coming out of the closest normaly used for ppl to admit their gay les transexual the works, but this works too :D

and also those who are like to close frens which get ever closer and closer till their hands connect, then their lips and then their..... woah look at da time, better continue.

well my point is that, there a varieties of relationships and u shunt (there such a word?) base ur on wat u see on others. and more importantly keep a free mind~NVR imagine wat a relationship should be like. Such as by so and so we should hold hands and be kissing, we should be able to talk freely bout our sex life, we would be cuddling day and nite blablabla. keep it free man =.= or woman, and dont be the type that gives gives gives and dont take .

okay da last statement would be WTFBBQ ???!!! for sum
wat i meant was, some ppl in a relationship keeps giving until they forget to take in wat the other trying to give/tell back. example buy presents, give kisses (the smooch or da chocolate, ur choice) take out eat etc. but maybe all they(the other) wants is for u too understand and listen. such as how their day has been, bitchy boss, sucky lecturer etc. wat their thinking blablabla.and then respond to tat ( dun ask me how @.@ it seems if u give a nonchalant reply, get ready for a looooooooooong one) u could lie tat u care when u really dont too. better then telling it out rite. then tat would just trigger emoness bomb to erupt. emo emo emo

well seriously i dun have much idea in a serious relationship, nvr been into one. so i would prefer to stop there. rather not write more trash later kena blame by ppl then matis.

until next time i guess...
think i should write bout ppl around love birds huh? those tat wants to shoot the birds down and those that wants to feed them.

sayur mana !

Monday, July 07, 2008

Boredom hits in twos

Yooo.... here i am again....... bored.
the diffrent thing today is...
im bored and i duno wat to crap about.
so i need a little help. put up topics tat u would like to hear my crap about and
ill choose one of them (persuming there is more then one) and well
crap about it.

readers do drop a topic or two, presumable things events wateva except ppl. ppl for example giving me names such as suyin , leo, kai lin etc. cant crap bout ppl. cuz well their ppl =.=|||

off i go to dwell in boredom toodles,

PS: dropping da topics would oso let me knoe who reads this blog ^^V

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Fiss...

Fissss.......
so my baby cousins, aka fish .
Went to a fish spa ! family outing.

no its not a spa that u bring fishes to have them unwind, u go there and well get serviced by fish.
now dont get any funny iideas from tat statement, by service mean they clean u up, well
in this case , just ur leg/feet.

it cost RM18 for half and hour, mum's treat.
sorry but the oni pics i have from there are my feet, so yea, ur gonna be seeing pictures of my feet, deal with it :P

Here comes da SWARM ! da above pic is just when i dunk my leg into da pool....spa.
then they seem to love my leg and their number increased:
from wat i learn, the fishes mostly eat/feed on ur legs and well dun really like/attracted to other parts of ur body, so this spas normally let u place ur feet in since its redundant to immerse ur whole self. there are others that let u dunk ur whole bod in though, but at least none found in pg so far.


At this point my aunt was complaining that im stealing all the fishes away from her, she had little fish. though i was thinking ur legs are too clean d and mine is full of dead skin >_> yea the fishes are feeding off the dead skin from ur legs, especially the feet.

Intresting experience, ticklish but also relaxing. gotta try if ya nvr tried. little fish mouth massaging and cleaning ur leg, cool !

if any of u going near about commenting on da leg hair , don't cuz my reply would just be :
...
and ill ignore ur existance for 5 minutes !!! hurr hurr

Thursday, July 03, 2008

ahh full....

Now that my fuel tank is loaded up , lets see where was i
ahh yes, the issue bout love,

lets continue, lets look at certain animals
(those that wanna argue humans and animals are two totally seperate categories ... as far as im concern, your (we) are just monkeys in my eyes.)
ps:dun start the creation mambo here either =.=

looking at animals, we could see that animals who stick which each other (e.g humans) tend to take care of their young. while others dat breed and byebye such as turtles/uukuai/(no kai lin not included in this category) dun stick with each other.

therefore there should be an inbuilt instinct in these animals tat tells them to STAY like monkeys, sum birds etc. which would be the evolutionary source of LOVE? intresting yesh ?
those who dont, I HATE JOO !!!
jk jk

anyhoo imagine if we have da instinct of a turtle(again not lin~dun lah bully him) we would rush to da nearest female on heat, plant our seeds and go byebye. but this wont bode well since oni 1 baby not hundreds, so to ensure our seeds grow up and come outta da oven/incubator/mother/pls girls dun kill me im oni joking here :P we aid in the upbringing of the child.

okay sien d, lets look at another point of view, wat bout gays lesbians bisexuals etc?
well from wat i knoe, gay relationships are harder to last since we got two seeders on each other so lust>love (males have to admit it that we cant function without sex, its in our genes :D)
and lesbians tend to have least breakups compare to gays, err not so sure if compared to straights though @.@

so lets come back again to relationships
the start of one
when guy likes girl, girl likes guy but duno tat first guy likes girl and 2nd guy dun like girl
(seriously this tends to happen alot LOL)
biggest prob here tends to be courage/fear actually , well guys mite not wana show/tell/admit/sms/email first because their just afraid to "lose" the girl and therfore when another guy goes after da girl first, due to our human law, we end up welling the whole issue into ourselves and become and emo time bomb since we cant release it and hammer da other male into da earth for approaching our potential mate ( what ? ITS TRUE ! less she is infertile but would still be a "mate' )

as for girls ~ ............. honestly sumone enlighten me how gals function, seriously a mistery >_>. cant blame them, their hormones are very unstable relative to guys .
to save me the misery i shall skip this part. dangerous yes ? when u writing bout sumting u have no idea on O_O

wat i knoe is YES girl do go gah gah when they see a potential mate(hot guys) as this translates tat the guy carry good genes for our offsprings. wether they get erection anot i duno ask them. my guess is unlikely, most likely just develop lust/love to the mate . guys when see hot girls get erection cuz biologically we can put our poles into da holes, and well females cant put holes onto a slag pole yes?

thus they have rituals in order to attract more mates (females oso want their genes pass down u knoe !!! u selfish guys who think other way !!!) well rituals being ................. figure it out urself =.= im just too lazy(scared) to write here

bleah, so wat i can say is take ur chances instead of regretting it later, seriously if u cant get means u cant get its better to get it over with instead of longing it secretly in ur heart while u think its a secret almost da whole world knoes d. we got mouth eyes and the internet, rite?
if by getting rejected leads to the other avoiding u and disliking u, well in truth they would not make a good friend anyway if their like tat. good riddance ! .. how u spell ridance... think its riddance.

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Dogs are Mens best friends, amen to that ! WOOF !

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Yellow!!! Yet Another Sunrise

Hi there fellow ppls, yet another good afternoon.
Wassup guys/gals, or wassdown for those in emo mood.
sky is clear, sunny afternoon.

Well i guess most of you would have guessed for there to be a post here means tat im bored
well, partly true. Cuz as of yesterday, i drained my main antiboredom resorces.

I finished all my House M.D. series, which is 3 full seasons plus season 4 1-9.
WoW... yea i still play,, but this early to play is boring since there is not much ppl in WoW
around this timing.

So here i am blogging. !!!SHOCK!!!

i noticed my blogstlye is kinda erratic.... maybbe tat could be an understatement so anyhoos..
ppl tend to blog bout sumting ... well u cant blog bout nothing could u ? well actually u can if u start to argue about the defination of nothing blablabla.

most blog bout their life events i guess, sum bout their feeling (RESPECT ! i can nvr seem to be able to write down my feelings for the entire world to see properly)

Soo...... wat should this blog post b?

Lets see,
wat can this twisted mind think of ^^~i like to faint insanity (maybe i am O_O) cuz it gives a wild new perspective

Lets talk bout LoVe

Is love but a chemical reaction in da brain ?
watched House and there was an episode where a girl fall in love due to
sum kinda spore in her brain.
makes u think huh ? LOVE POTION EXISTS !!!!

So Why LovE is there, (my point of view)
from a scientific point of view ~ to prevent extinction?
From Religious point of view ~ to preserve creation? (note: love for God is NOT the same)
ps: dun crucify me >.<

does it exist in animals? probably~ most likely in mammals oni though,
our bbrain is da most simalar to each other. cant see it in insects fish etc.

heres da funny thing bout love

normal human reaction to pain would be to avoid it.
so : human + pain = human distancing from pain

but when u put Love inside

Human + (love+pain) = stupid human who lust for more of it

funny how tat works

sure there are those who go : ILL NVR FALL IN LOVE AGAIN !!! which is total BS
(BS=bullshit)
sooner or later gonna happen again.

of course when im writing this im not thinking it through just typing wat comes to mind.

when thers love of course we cant negate jealousy,
the chemical reaction that is green.
viewing it from a evolutionary point of view, its a feeling that compels u to get wat u want/need
so why do we get angry when we see our gf get close to another guy?
same reason as why a gorilla bashes the other gorilla for going near his mate.

so ...............


im hungry, gonna continue it sum other time >_>

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Lyrics From The Portal ~ Gan Lae Gan

ถ้าบอกว่าเพลงนี้แต่งให้เธอ เธอจะเชื่อไหม
taa bok waa pleng nee dtaeng hai ter ter ja cheua mai
If I said that this song is made for you, would you believe it?

มันอาจไม่เพราะไม่ซึ้งไม่สวยงามเหมือนเพลงทั่วไป
man aat mai pror mai seung mai suay ngaam meuan pleng tua bpai
It's probably not melodious, not affectionate, not beautiful like other songs.

อยากให้รู้ว่าเพลงรัก ถ้าไม่รักก็เขียนไม่ได้
yaak hai roo waa pleng rak taa mai rak gor kian mai daai
I want you to know that if there's no love, you can't write a love song.

แต่กับเธอคนดีรู้ไหม ฉันเขียนอย่างง่าย...ดาย
dtae gap ter kon dee roo mai chan kian yaang ngaai ... daai
But for you, my dear, do you know? I wrote it easily.

เธอคงเคยได้ยินเพลงรักมานับร้อยพัน
ter kong koie dai-yin pleng rak maa nap roi pan
You've probably heard hundreds and thousands of love songs

มันอาจจะโดนใจ
man aat ja dohn jai
that's probably impressive

แต่ก็มีความหมายเหมือนๆกันแต่ถ้าเธอฟังเพลงนี้
dtae gor mee kwaam maai meuan-meuan gan dtae taa ter fang pleng nee
but with a similar meaning altogether, but if you listen to this song,

เพลงที่เขียนเพื่อเธอเท่านั้น
pleng tee kian peua ter tao nan
a song that's written simply for you.

เพื่อเธอเข้าใจความหมายแล้วใจจะได้มีกันและกัน
peua ter kao jai kwaam maai laew jai ja daai mee gan lae gan
For you to understand the meaning of it, our hearts will then have a connection.

ให้มันเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง ที่จะมีเพียงเสียงเธอกับฉัน
hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.

อยู่ด้วยกันตราบนานๆ
yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan
Together as long as possible.

ดั่งในใจความบอกในกวีว่าตราบใดที่มีรักย่อมมีหวัง
dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there's love naturally there's hope.

คือทุกครั้งที่รักของเธอส่องใจ ฉันมีปลายทาง
keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.

มีความจริงอยู่ในความรักตั้งมากมาย
mee kwaam jing yoo nai kwaam rak dtang maak maai
There is a lot of facts found in love,

และที่ผ่านมาฉันใช้เวลาเพื่อหาความหมาย
lae tee paan maa chan chai way-laa peua haa kwaam maai
and in the past I used the time for the sake of finding the meaning.

แต่ไม่นานก็เพิ่งรู้ เมื่อทุกครั้งที่มีเธอใกล้
dtae mai naan gor perng roo meua took krang tee mee ter glai
But soon, I'd just know it, whenever you are near me,

ว่าถ้าชีวิตคือทำนอง เธอก็เป็นดังคำร้องที่เพราะและซึ้งจับใจ
waa taa chee-wit keu tam nong ter gor bpen dang kam rong tee pror lae seung jap jai
That if life's a rhythm, you are the lyrics that makes it beautiful.

ให้มันเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง ที่จะมีเพียงเสียงเธอกับฉัน
hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.

อยู่ด้วยกันตราบนานๆ
yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan
Together as long as possible.

ดั่งในใจความบอกในกวีว่าตราบใดที่มีรักย่อมมีหวัง
dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there's love naturally there's hope.

คือทุกครั้งที่รักของเธอส่องใจ ฉันมีปลายทาง
keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.

มีทางเดินให้เราเดินเคียง และมีเสียงของเธอกับฉัน
mee taang dern hai rao dern kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan
There's a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.

มีทางเดินให้เราเดินร่วมเคียง และมีเสียงของเธอกับฉัน
mee taang dern hai rao dern ruam kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan
There's a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Reminiscence


Friends Through Time

As time flies through the branches
green leaves becomes rotten.
Will you leave your past memories
and friends be forgotten?

There has been joy
there has been tears.
But will you end up alone
living in a world full of fears?

Some seek to manipulate
some seek to mend.
The most important question is :
what do you seek in a friend?

A true friend is irreplaceable
a person who understands you.
Would you trade them for a pot of gold
and abandon what they done for you?

Time is a cruel thing
it breaks up relationships and brings pain to thee.
What will you do if it happens,
seek to mend it or let it be?

Cherish the things friends do for you
Remember the times when your with your friends
Let it be ups and downs
For the experiences you have been through shall be a lesson
One that cannot be obtained through a lecture
And let the lesson be remembered
Until your final heart-beat

Learn you must that in life you must not be alone
or else it wouldnt be life at all
It will be an empty husk of a once rich seed
waiting to be blown away by time at fall.

~YeN~

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Yo Ho Ho to Emptiness



Yo Ho Ho
Supreme Boredom Has Succesfully Drive Me Here To This Blog Again

So I guess The common question would be:
What's Up?

Well The Ceiling i guess =.=
well actually Infusion 2008 performance has just finish
though personally, i feel that nothing much have occured
nothing big, nothing significant.
I duno why but things seems to be so "empty" to me
lately, any idea guys?
Lets not go to try a new perspective nonsense,

My life is Summarized into:
1)Class
2)Anime
3)Manga
4)DoTA
5)Sleep
6)Eat

Sigh, i always hoped theres sumtin more to this
but i cant find any
Think i should start a hobby or sumtin >_>
but things im intrested in i have no funds T_T

Meh,
Fun, Excitement, Surprise
This elements are missing from my life.
Well, i gain sum of that via the Anime and Mangas
but sumtimes realife ones are more ... real.
hehehe
Time shall take its course i guess,
Everythings Feels so...
Empty

PS: im not in a down mood or anything, so dont worry guys
just wana write on how i view things lately
Empty



Wednesday, December 26, 2007




Sooo Its Past Christmas and...
I FINNALY GET MY FIRST CHRISTMAS PRESENT !!!!

WOOOHOOO

well present as in "Present"

Its a hamper from dove that i won,
surprising since when i was writing on the card i was
mumbling, bleh simply write lah cannot win one
so anyway here it is !!!
arrived today ~~~Packed like how all hampers are packed, i proceeded to rip away the ugly wrapping

And TADA omg the santa is damm cute lah
haha my mum wants it
so gave it to her
then here is wats in the hamper ^^

hmm missing two more bars of soap, forgot to put in, hehe
lazy to take another pic d
since my dog was rampaging nearby for attention.
guess ill be using Dove for the entire year d next year
LOLz

Melli Kelismas Guys & Gals
And dont fall sick like me,
Stupid Cough Block Nose and Sorethroat !!

Oh and Enjoy Ur Results ~
Im getting mine tomolo
WEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Thursday, November 29, 2007

What Am I ?


Weak
I have became so weak,
I use to be able to endure through
Now to break so easily
Pathetic.

To be able to stand by myself again
To be strong on my own
I have been through this before
Things that I thought would happen
Happens
Things that I wish to happen
Never do

Hanging on that thread of hope
Refusing to let go
Yet reality dawns upon
And hope came crashing to the ground

I lost so much before
I will lose more ahead
But I shall endure
Like I have any other choice.


In Dream I shall recide
In Heart I shall hide
I shall endure the tides
Let it carry me through the nite…

~When God created me, What was He thinking~
Yen

Thursday, November 01, 2007



U know you are in NUS after midterm period when
You look at your friends personal messages and get:
Hahahahha. . .
Seriously, do other Uni's make their poor students
go like that ?

~To Balance between Work & Life~

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Senses



It's like a cycle, things keep repeating, though not exactly the same
there are always the similarities.
Sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset
Classes assignments reports tests
sleep wakeup eat sleep
on and on and on
well this are the things that we dont really have to bother to knoe it is a cycle.

But pause and think
wat about the ones around us, sure u might just say their going through the same thing
as usual,
yet, do you no notice the changes in them
or do u choose to be just ignorant.
There are those that need us when we are
in the midst of doing our work.
no matter how busy you are, things around u continues to change,
there is no pause button, that allows u continue from where u stopped.
The me you know yesterday is not the me you know today.

Yet, some ppl views things like a cycle, like:
Oh shes doing that again,
it's one of his emo periods, he will get over it one day.

STOP and consider, you are something tangible to them,
things you do DOES effect them,
no matter how small it is,
A simple hi and goodnite,
a listening ear.
Things that we could do that can change how a person's cycle is
NEI, it is not a cycle, its a path. We are not in a cycle.
Things that has past will nvr occur again,
"shes always emo one" and "it's his emo period again"
if you already KNOW it is repetitive,
yet u let it repeat.
Maybe its you that is the missing link, that can stop the repetition.
(or worsen it depending on your actions)
But standing by idly does not aid.
Do something, at least try.
It is not easy to understand a person's heart.
But it is still doable.


The
Lock-Heart

A heart, filled with feelings and emotions,
Yet, unable to open itself to others,
Chained and locked by fear, pride and distrust.
It longs to share what that is within,
Always hoping that one day the key would come,
To unlock and release it from the heavy rusty chains....

~Spare me just a small part of your life~
Yen




Monday, October 15, 2007

Heart Art- Heart



When you too much free time (due to procrastination) what do you do?
Me i doodle. Below are my recent doodles in what state could a person heart be in.
inspired through observation from people around me and myself .

So which kinda heart is yours, though normally comprise of a few of the states.
okay, i oni doodled two here , more will come soon . Ahaha...
Thorn Heart
A heart full of love and care, a blossom for the other,
Yet the yearning binds and constricts, bleeding itself , hurting.
This heart wants to offer all the love it can, but it also forms
thorn vines that binds and constrict itself, resulting in feelings
of constraint and ache.
Frost Heart
A fragile, cold heart, formed from the loss of love
the lack of love turns the heart cold and empty,
ever yearning for the warmth of love.
But yet, fragile, easily smashed into shards,

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Nei... I'm lost...



Where am i going? I dunno... do you..? Would you kindly tell me if you do ?
...
Most probably you dont know too...
Thatz okay, ill just take another step forward.
Where to ?
Good question...
Lets see...where am i ...
Im standing, in a barren place, no home here i guess.
Kinda drizzling abit too, though there some warmth along with it.
This warmth, it feels really nice ^^, but somehow i sense it fleeting away...
hmm. the rain might get heavier if that happens i guess.
The winds are blowing kinda rough, guess must be those times.
Whats this? Ouh a frozen shard...It feels cold,
yet i feel like this belongs to me.
Guess ill keep it close, maybe one day it will thaw.
Hmm, quite cloudy, not surprise, since its drizzling after all.
Oh, theres an oasis there... seems like a mirage though...
the warmth also seems to becoming from there too...
hmm... maybe i should head there? i don't seem to have any other direction anyway...
other paths? hmm maybe if i see something interesting along the way.
The sky looks violent there though, maybe it will clear
by the time i reach there.
Besides, i would like to enjoy this warmth for a little longer
Ah well, i better get moving, nothing to do here anyway,
what about ya? care to join in my travel..?
ouh?
emm, guess you have your own path to walk huh...?
Is there anyone else with me? Oh, well you here for now.
Thats counted too rite ^^.
Would i be alright? Haha, don't worry,
I am kinda use to walking alone. . .
besides, you can never really know what lies ahead can you?
guess thats what makes each step count.
well then i should get going now, i pray our path cross again one day.
...
Safe journey to you too.
**Takes another step forward to the warmth. . . .**
:---:~{Overlaying Dreams Upon Reality}~:---:




Tuesday, September 11, 2007

The Cycle



I never learn do i . . .

Sunday, October 22, 2006



Save me from my self...

Saturday, September 08, 2007

In Memories of Twister. . .



You were such a small figure, such a tiny entity, and yet you were so many things to me.
Though i can't remember the day when u came into my arms,
I remembered the memories when we were together,
When you were my...

~Friend~
You were always there, always ready, to play around with me.
To cheer me up with your energetic behavior.
You never fail to remove the loneliness i often felt in my life.
Your dark brown eyes always seems so understanding,
You never refuse me your ear when i needed it,
Listening to all my troubles and comforting me with your warmth. . .
I shall always remember, how u wake me up by knocking on my door,
So you can come into my room, just to snuggle under my blanket.
I will remember the times, when i was studying for examination,
You were always there, beside me staying with me through the whole nite.
Your presence never fail to give strength to me to go through the piles of books.

~Guardian~
How you would bark at strangers,
The way you protect my stuffs when others try to take it,
How you attack those who hits me,
Having you by my side makes me feel safe, protected.
Though small in size, you were big in courage.
The brown coat that you have always give me comfort,
The times when you attacked me after i annoy you too much,
The way you playfully attack the blanket,
The way you lick my face to give me encouragement,
The soft yet rough feel of your paws on my face...

~Pillar~
You have been my support when i was about the crumble,
Somehow you manage to prevent me from breaking down,
Those dark brown eyes of yours always give a sense of love and understanding,
And yet you never have to say a word.
When i feel the world is against me,
You would come along and show me that i could face the world
I would always remember the times you were there for me when im down,
never questioning, always there to listen, always supportive
The times when you would be there to greet me home,
After i come back from a tiring day.
How you jump around in excitement at the sight of me,
When everyone else is too busy to greet me back...

~Secret Keeper~
How i would tell you my feelings when I'm down,
How you were patient with me on the matters that i do
The way you allow me to remove that many masks that i wear,
You never scrutinize, never criticize.
How you would take good care of your pups,
How you allow me to handle them.
How i could trust you on not stealing my food.
The way you bark and jump about to ask for food,
The small pink tongue of yours when your panting,
The way you squirm about when i bath you,
Causing me to be wet all over and thus having to bath myself after that...

~Love~
Always you show care and love to me,
You never get bored of me being the boring person i am,
Always beside me whenever i need you,
How you never hated me for the times i treat you badly,
Always forgiving in the things you do,
How you get jealous when i play with the others,
Ill remember the time when i just got you,
How you would chase your own tail about
Thus gaining your name,
Though your name was a miscommunication between me and my uncle,
Your name shall forever be engraved in my heart,
The warmth of your cheek when i kiss it,
The soft-cold feeling of your nose,
How your hair makes me itch
The tears in your eyes after seeing me when i come back after a long while. . .

Never will i be able to place all that we have been through into text,
A task impossible since there are no words that could describe the feelings that i have for you,
In this short life of yours with me, i wonder, how do you feel.
Were you contented? Happy with your life?
Were you sad, depress or angry,
I wish you could tell me.
I hope you feel the same as i felt for you,
The ups and downs that we been through together.
I never regretted a single moment i had with you,
No matter how bad the moment could be.
Yet after all this,
I wish you could forgive me.
After all that we have been through,
I couldn't be by your side during your final moments,
I couldn't comfort you through your pain as how you did for me,
I couldnt give you the warmth that you gave me during my ordeal,
You gave so much and taken so little in this small life of yours,
Yet at your final hours i couldnt be there for you,
The last image of you in my mind is the sight of you at the door,
watching me leave in the car to go to the bus stop,
Tell me, did you know that time could be the final time you could see me,
I remember the last words i told you before i left:-
Take care of the family and behave well when I'm gone.
And seeing you flick your sharp ears about as i whisper into yours . . .
Did it hurt? I hope you were able to pass on peacefully.
I hope that you were happy with your life.
I hope you enjoy the time with me and the family.
Are you in a better place now? How is it like?
...
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry for not taking care of you better,
Would you blame me?
I couldnt stop my flow of tears right now,
Would you be angry at me for being so weak?
I know i should be letting go, but please give me some time,
The loss of you has been a great blow to me,
I hope you will understand.

Again, I'm sorry for not being able to be by your side,
I hope that you will forgive me...

Twister, I love you and I always will. . .
..~Rest in Peace~..
8th September 2007


Monday, September 03, 2007

~Feelings~




Warm to the touch,
A sight for the sore,
Without doing much,
You warm me to the core.

To hold you to sleep,
To have your warmth on me,
Your gentle breath as you sleep,
Would be like a gentle lullaby to me.

How i wish for me to be with you,
How i yearn for your company,
But it could not be true,
Due to our current society. . .

~yen~

Yen~To be with you





Saturday, September 01, 2007

-nil-

I'm doing the same thing again. . .
The thing that i hate myself for doing so . . .
Though i cant help myself, for its beyond my control. . .
Yet again i suffer, yet again i hide. . .
Feeling lost and confuse,
Feeling alone among friends,
Feelings that i hate,
but yet they come,
The burn in the heart when there is yearning,
The frost that develops when it is no obtained,
For i am a small human, one that has it's needs,
Barriers build by society, chained by rules,
Ever-present, Ever-there, Ever-dominating,
To hide in myself, to seek for a safe haven,
Though its safe, loneliness creeps in,

How i wish i could be a puppy,
Just to sleep in warmth,
Just to enjoy the comfort,
A worry not in mind,
See a puppy's face when its asleep,
How it shows, How it feels,
How i wish i am one. . .
~yen~